Avicii’s last words before 2018’s death revealed in new ‘Tim’ book
More than three years after his death, Avicii’s last words have been revealed.
The DJ (real name Tim Bergling) committed suicide at the age of 28 in April 2018. Journalist MÃ¥ns Mosesson explores the life and legacy of the musician in the upcoming book Tim – The official biography of Avicii, which features some of the Swedish native’s heartbreaking diary entries from his stays at various treatment facilities.
âIt had to be explained to me in a very logical and cave-like way for me to really understand his nature and how it hurt me. Ouch, the pain. Why am I in pain now? Feeling uncomfortable, âthe musician wrote while in Ibiza Calm rehabilitation center in 2015 after his family arranged for an intervention. âThe future Tim will have to face the pain. The future Tim manages the pain better than the current Tim because there are already too many more urgent pain present to deal with.
In another post, he wrote: âI had a hard time coming to terms with never drinking again, although all the doctors strongly suggested waiting at least a year before even having a beer. â¦ Of course, I didn’t listen to the majority of the doctors, I listened to the couple who said it was OK if I was careful. I was ignorant and naive and circled the world, always on the endless tour – because once you circled it once, guess what? “
The ‘Levels’ artist continued, âYou start over right away. Those days in the hospital were the most anxious and stress-free days I can remember in the past six years, it’s my real vacation, depressing as it sounds.
After detailing some of the aspects of recovery that were “a little scary”, her last diary entry read, “The loss of the soul is the last attachment, before it starts again!”
In the years leading up to his death, the Grammy nominee faced a handful of health issues, including being hospitalized in 2012 with acute pancreatitis, which was believed to have been caused by excessive alcohol consumption. Two years later, he underwent surgery to remove his appendix and gallbladder. In 2016, he was forced to retire from the stage due to poor health.
A documentary was released in October 2017, in which Avicii expressed concerns about his well-being.
“I have been very open with everyone I work with and everyone who knows me,” he said in Avicii: True stories, which was available on Netflix. âEveryone knows I have anxiety and have tried. I didn’t expect people to try to force me to do more concerts.
At the time, the ‘Tough Love’ artist told the cameras, âThey saw how bad I felt doing it, but I had a lot of resistance when I wanted to stop doing. concerts. I told them this. I won’t be able to play anymore. I said, like, ‘I’m going to die.’ I have said it so many times. And so, I don’t want to hear that I should consider doing another gig.
Avicii was laid to rest in June 2018. Two months earlier, his family had vowed to keep his “memory alive” and thanked the fans for their support.
âOur beloved Tim was a seeker, a fragile artistic soul seeking answers to existential questions. â¦ He really struggled with thoughts about meaning, life, happiness, âhis relatives noted in an April 2018 statement.â He couldn’t go on anymore. He wanted to find peace. Tim was not made for the business machine he was in; he was a sensitive guy who loved his fans but shied away from the spotlight. Tim, you will always be loved and will be sadly missed. The person you were and your music will keep your memory alive.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.
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